Change can happen any day and any month of the year. Culturally, however, we have designated January as the month of new beginnings and reinvention. While this annual transition may help many become new in some way, I am not looking to reinvent myself. I am looking to be more authentically me.
In the last year I spent much of my time reflecting and analyzing my progress in a variety of areas. Time and again, I found my progress to be stunted, which led me to analyze what it was that was stopping me from reaching my full potential. I have pinpointed my problem to be insufficient organization. Ggiven that much can fall under it- procrastination, time management, etc, I am using this as an umbrella term. With the amount of things that I am doing and wish to accomplish, my current level of organization simply isn’t going to cut it.
I often find myself in a loop of exhaustion and disappointment. I set out with a fair amount of tasks to complete in a day and, for some reason or another, I don’t complete all them even though I feel like it’s all systems go. At the end of the day, I end up crashing on my bed- or couch- with many a tasks unfinished. This, in turn, can leave me feeling horrible about myself and completely unmotivated.
Through my introspection, I have come to realize that being diligent in reaching my goals is the pathway to authenticity and actualization. When I get sidetracked by my bad habits of procrastination or lackluster time management, I do not allow myself the opportunity to fully express myself and passions.
To help keep me on task in both the personal and professional realm, I will ask myself the following questions:
- Does this serve me?
- Is this what I really want?
Old habits die hard- hell, even new habits die hard. I’ve battled procrastination since high school, and even though I have improved, I’ve recently developed a habit of simply not caring about a task when I have no interest or desire to do it. I have reached a point, however, where I simply don’t have the time to procrastinate. It doesn’t serve me.
I need to up my organization to stay on track with all the content I want to produce, and all of the progress I want to make in my personal and professional life.
I repeat, my intention for 2019 is to be more organized. To take the time to be prepared. To take the time to rest and recharge. To take the time to reflect and ask myself: Does this serve me? Is it what I really want?
All of this so that I become the person I truly am meant to be.
How will you be our true self this year?